Responsibilty and Love

salam alaykum..
maaf,lama tidak meng-update blog ini..(lebih kepada diri sendiri maaf ni:P)
lama berjanji dengan diri sendiri untuk update,tetapi tiada idea yang menarik untuk dikongsi..

namun ada beberapa benda yang menjadi tonik semangat untuk menulis..hari ini we will learn a little bit inside me..

being the first son in my family,people often think I'm the matured one because I'm the "abang" in the family..even I'm addressed myself as abang in my family..:P..but notthey are wrong..I'm not that kind of person..I hate responsibility,and I often ran away from it..I hate the fact that I'm the first child,I hate the fact that I have to become responsible for everything..

because (I consider) my parents are strict,I suffered quite a handful of discipline action,in order to so-called educating me to be example for my younger siblings..(I used to hate this before,now i understand it)..worst,I blame to everyone around me things that I can't do nor afraid to do..never ever think i could be the one to blame too..I become narcissistic,a super-confident about my own way,playing around like a headless chicken and that I don't have to be responsible just because I want it that way...

I'm afraid,so afraid to do mistake..
I'm so careful and hate to lose and be wrong..
I'm just doing things that I like,I have confident with and things that 100 percent would be in favor for me..

now what have all of that to do with taking responsibility??

i think,if u not ready to take risks,never bother about taking responsibility!

it doesn't come cheaply,it come with risks!!

So many things around me and involves me,would never happen without responsibility..

because of it,my parents took the risk agreed to wed early..(19 and 20)..
because of it,all lecturers and teachers of me,never failed to give advice for the best of me..
because of it,even the captain of my team show so much affections in taking care of all us(even maybe in quite a weird way :P)

I now understand it,how beautiful it is,how it such a lovely feeling for that to happen..
I might be correct,responsibility gives u hard time and quite a headache sometimes..but i believe the rewards indeed is unexplainable..:)

because i believe it such a beautiful feeling to have some to depends on you..
being responsible never came out from being forced,it comes from LOVE..
yes u read it right,L-O-V-E..
you are not willing to take risks,because u are forced too..NO!
because u care,and u love them,so u willing to take risks for them!

I questioned myself,for what sake all the thing I've done??is this wholeheartedly,or just I'm doing it for the sake of myself??I've been thinking about it,and how I ashamed to even think about it!!
It seems like I have played with everybody hearts and feeling,that they think I'm a person that can be rely too,where in fact I'm doing it halfheartedly..seems like I'm the jerkiest dude ever! :(

don't get me wrong,i wont go that lovey-dovey puppy love area..
I grace love with all my respect and heart..I'm not just referring love in a lovely romantic movies way,I'm describing love as universal - its around you!

father+mother+siblings..
grandma+granpa..
Friends..
lecturers+teachers..

I've been blessed with them,and all their love towards me,with all of them taking their respective responsible towards me a their should too,wholeheartedly and in a very positive manner..

I'm ashamed that it took me this long to say this..

Yes,I'm willing to take the risks now..
Yes,I want people to start depending on me..
Yes,I do realised now..

I WANT TO TAKE THE RISKS AND THE RESPONSIBILITY NOW!

i will not be afraid to be wrong..
i will not be ashamed of it..
i will try to learn from my mistake and improvise myself..
insyaAllah..:)

I'm hoping for the moment where I can't proudly saying out loud to everyone

"you guys can DEPENDS ON ME"

the D-Day would come eventually,insyaAllah..

perpisahan..

salam alaykum~

"setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan"..

biasa dengar kan phrase ni??
hidup kita,merupakan satu kitaran sebenarnya..
walaupun sedar atau tidak,masa yang berjalan sebenarnya telah menyebabkan kita lalai dan leka dengan sekeliling kita...

antara perkara yang aku suka lakukan ialah mengimbau kembali kenangan lampau..
back to the exact time,and kalau boleh aku prefer to be on that specific places olso..

for example,a year ago its me who jump with joy after my A-Level finish..and yet after a year I'm doing the exact same thing-have a dinner at Pak li at Ole2 Shah Alam..

today my juniors are celebrating their little 'independent day'..can't believe how fast time passes by..they do 'moving' at such a massive speed nowadays!!

anyway its not that i want to say..Its about how ok it is,to sometimes walk down the 'timeline' road..thinking and revising what have u done in the past..so u can take some lesson from it,and avoid doing the same old mistake..

not everything I had done in the past that i proud of,but I'm not feeling bad either to say a few notable things is worth a place in my mind..
we will keep study and learn,because we are human,who are a special creature with miraculous ability..

the other things that i learn is never have a fond feeling toward something/place/one,because it would hurt u more than u know..

I believe its one of the Prophet saying that we must be moderate and not practicing extremism in one way or another..and I can understand know why..


adieu,salam alaykum..

Aku hamba pendosa..

salam alaykum..




aduhai, tuhanku..
kurniakan daku Sakinah ketenangan,
jatuhkan ia ke dalam qalbu,
agar aku terus termanggu,
mabuk mengejar cinta-Mu!!

sungguh aku hamba pendosa,
aku pergi tatkala hati riang gembira,
aku kembali sedang aku rugi dan hina..

namun,KAU tetap ada di sisi!!
kau tetap singgah di hati,
mencampakkan titis-titis kerahmatan,
tuntas bercambah menjadi selautan ampunan!!

apakah masih ada kemaafan bagiku..
sedang aku jiwa pendosa,
telah ku penuhi nafsu ku dengan dunia,
lantas terlupa,
seringkali aku bersikap lewa,
akan baitku kepada-Mu di Luh Mahfuz!!

duhai rabbi,
aku pohon kasih belas-mu,
berilah aku sekelumit cinta-Mu,
campakkan daku benih rahmat-Mu,
hangatkan gelora berahi,cinta yang hakiki,
cinta yang asli,
cinta hanya pada yang sudi..

kerna kau,lebih dekat dengan urat sarafku!!

aduhai Tuhan,kurniakan aku hikmah,
kurniakan aku Wajd,
agar aku merasa indahnya Sema'..

kurniakan aku ikhlas,
untuk aku membajak benih-benih takwa..

kurniakan aku Istiqamah,
sehingga aku bisa mencicip manisnya buah-buah ibadah,

duhai Tuhan,

laksana Adam memaafkan Hawa,
ibarat Muhammad rindukan Khadijah,
seperti Ali sayangkan Fatimah,

maka kurniakanlah daku,
cinta yang bersandar pada-Mu,
yang mendidik aku ke jalan takwa,
menarik daku dari jilatan api Jahanam.

Duhai Rabb,
daku hamba pendosa,hanya meminta
ampunan dan rahmat-Mu,
juga sekelumit cinta-Mu,
sebelum matahari sirna dari barat,
dan pintu taubat-Mu tertutup rapat!!




Mohd Iduan Masri,
25/2/2011,Jumaat,
21/Rabiulawal/1432 AH

aku jatuh cinta denganmu..

salam alaykum..

setelah lama tidak membuat post tentang isu ugama di blog ini,alhamdulillah aku kembali ke fitrah..
aku sajikan untuk tatapan pembaca..berkongsi sedikit nukilan dariku..
aku tidak sehebat shakespeare mahupun emily dickinson misalnya..dan aku pun x mahu menandingi mereka..
dunia aku dan mereka jauh berbeza..
jauh sekali aku mampu setanding dengan Hassan al-Thabit,penyair Rasulullah SAW..
mahupun Usman Awang,A.Samad Said ataupun
penulis muda yang aku kagumi, Dr Faisal Tehrani..

ketahuilah,aku cuma Hamba..dan aku cuma hamba yang mahu mencintai ALLAh,
mencintai Rasul-Nya dengan sepenuh dayaku yang termampu,

insyaALLAh..

Sajak ini aku nukilkan sementelah aku melakukan Ziarah terbaru ke masjid Negeri di Shah Alam..

dan aku tujukan kepada masjid ini..


"Duhai,aku kembali ke sisimu lagi,
Setelah aku goyah,punah ditabrak taufan nafsu dunia..

Duhai cintaku,
mengapa,mengapa kau tidak pernah gagal menghiburkanku??
mengapa kau tidak pernah gagal menenangkanku??
di dalam mu aku merasakan,
bayu-bayu lembut rahmat dan ampunan Tuhan-ku,
sungguh aku terpaku!
sepertinya kau punya magis yang bisa melembutkan,
hati-hati yang terkadang diperkuda nafsu Ammarah wal lAwwamah!

Duhai buah hatiku,
ceritakan kepadaku apa rahsiamu,
apakah ajaib yang kau kenakan,
apakah karamah yang kau tiupkan,
apakah bait-bait kata yang kau layarkan!

sehingga umat Muhammad di kota ini,
tidak jemu-jemu berbondong-bondong masuk ke dalam mu!

lantas aku tertanya-tanya jauh di kalbu ku..

Hai Fulan!

hai Fulanah!

apakah kau tidak punya hati??!!
di zaman hati-hati sudah busuk dengan duniawi ini,

laksana kau telah cabut hatimu yang kotor yang itu,
kau campakkan lantaS kau bergegas-gegas,
menyahut seruan suci menuju tuhan.

hai fulan..aku ingin bertanya,
apa kau tidak hairan,
dengan sibuknya kota??
dengan pusingan dunia??
dengan kitaran masa??

lantas,
aku terbayang Abdullah anak Rawahah di medan melawan Rom,
kurma-kurmanya dilontar ke tanah,
agar lebih tangkas menyusul Zaid dan Jaafar ke puncak redha..

seperti itulah!!!!Si fulan fulanah membuang 'kurma-kurma' keduniaan,
demi mencapai Redha Tuhan.

Maka aku pun mengerti,
kau duhai Fulan,
telah mencapai hakiki..
kau wahai fulan,
telah karam dalam cinta ilahi,

kau telah merasa mabuk berahi,
cinta yang suci!!

maka,
duhai buah hatiku..
aku amat berterima kasih padamu,
kau telah mengajarku,
erti cinta yang sejati,
cinta yang pasti,
cinta yang indah,
tanpa pura-pura..

kau memberiku secubit kenikmatan,
karam dalam cinta Tuhan!"

Mohd Iduan Masri,
24 Februari 2011,khamis,
21/Rabiulawal/1432 AH.

Saya straight saya ok!!

salam alaykum wbt..
dah tau pasal ape jugak kan??
jangan marah yea..nanti2 la aku post pasal islamic issue..
ni tgh melayan fitrah kejap..eheh..




I like the song,its so sweet,



i'm not saying this because i'm gay,
but,he's cute,and I like the way he's smile..sigh,wish i got that smile either,haha..





saya straight,saya ok!!

Saya pun manusia juga.....

Salam alaykum wbt..

heh,terkejut kah dengan tajuk??

dont be,betul pun..hehe..
saya pun manusia juga..

ok,entry kali ni x panjang..
nak berkongsi perasaan sendiri je..

tapi sebelum tu,enjoy the song below ok..







I hate to write this actually,because its not sure yet...

but this song make me WANTED TO PLAY PIANO SO MUCH!!

why??

because i hope,hopefully that one day,when i have married,
I want to play this song for my wife for every anniversaries of her,

be it her birthday,or our wedding anniversary,our any event that is memorable to her..




because ..THE SONG IS AS SWEET AS HER..



I bet no one ever expecting this from me,ain't??

everyone have their romantic side you know..

besides,
SAYA PUN MANUSIA JUGA,ehehehe..

salam alaykum wbt..


(p/s:do not misunderstood,i'm still single,saja nak melayan wild imagination kejap,ehehe)

What Happen in Tunisia,exactly??

salam alaykum..
this is the first post of the new year..and the first one since the last 3 months..
alhamdulillah...
I'am here,still..
a lot had happen for the past few months..and i have learn a lot..

enough for me,back to the topic...
Tunisia is a Arab populated-country,located in northern Africa..
for the past 20 years++ it have been ruled by a dictator and his family,called the Ben Ali..the Tunisian refers them as MAFIA..they rule the country in tyranny and injustice,
and control all the asset and money..thus led to people suffers and poverty..

BUT THEN WHAT ACTUALLY TRIGGER THE REVOLUTION THAT HAPPEN OVER THERE??
the story started when a job-less graduate try to set up a stall selling fruits and vegetables..and being sued and beaten police..this led him to protest in front of government office in a staggering way,BURN HIMSELF TO DEATH!!
this led to anger and protest from the public..they had suffer enough,and decide to overthrow the corrupt government after 4 weeks of protesting and cost almost 50+ souls..

SO??
then,do you ever realise,this revolution were rarely reported by media??be it the western media, or even locals..it doesn't hit the headlines,isn't???why??

BECAUSE IT SEND I,U,WE,US,EVERYONE..A MESSAGE,THAT THE TUNISIAN HAVE ARISE AGAINST THE CORRUPT GOVERNMENT..what about you??
this corrupt government were back up by the Zionist to control Muslim all over the world,so u remain asleep..
they said "dont wake up,sleep,enjoy all the worldly leisure and entertainment we give to you"..they dont want u too wake up,because they can control you then!!

can't u see it??
BECAUSE THEY DONT WANT U TOO REALISE THAT IT!!
THAT U BEING CONTROL,YOU MUST FOLLOW,OBEY,DO NOT OBJECT ANYTHING!!
THAT'S WHY MEDIA DOESN'T REPORT THIS,BECAUSE THIS IS DANGEROUS TO THEM,TO THEIR ALLIES!!

ever wonder why,America as the biggest supporter of democracy in the planet and even go to the extent to wage wars for democracy...check for their ALLIES among the Arab countries,who are their ALLIES??
be it SAUDI ARABIA,KUWAIT,EGYPT,ALGERIA,MOROCCO,

which one of those country support democracy???!!
or even if their do practice them,what happen to Islamic party that took part in it??

THAT'S WHY THEY DO NOT WANT U TO KNOW ABOUT IT,BECAUSE THEY ARE AFRAID,
AFRAID OF YOU...
THEY DO NOT WANT U TO WAKE UP,TO RESIST,TO FIGHT..

nothing is more beautiful than to hear our brothers and sisters in Tunisia chanted:
"WE HAVE NO FEAR EXCEPT TO ALLAH"...

what a lovely scene....fantastic!!
pray for them,my friends.....


our martyrs of Tunisia revolution!!!!



This is our brothers who burned himself to protest government injustice and sparked the revolution