kenapa mamat ni ada blog??!!

x taw pe nak tulis..decided to have a blog after an accident(bukan eksiden moto/keter ek) that made me cried...yes,i proudly say that i am cried that time...because i believe there is no gender limitations when expressing your feeling..even beloved Messenger of ALLAH(S.A.W) cried when his son ibrahim died..i do believe i also have a good reason to do so..hoho...am i try to justify myself,i mean my act???you know,when a guy tear down his 'so-called' gigantic wall name EGO,he'll do anythin' to re-construct it back..and each time higher than b4!!hahaha...i dont know..mr positive+optimist deep inside myself sayin'.."its ok to cry....no need to hide your feeling.....hey,its normal la 2 cry,everyone cry what???".....hurmmm...agree with it...but....a 20 years old guy cried in front of public????"cannot ek???saper ckap r???da sdiy nangis la...apa la....".....but....'lord' pessimist said:'you are so dead!!!...guys and girls seeing your cry??probably guys would said"what a squid/mama boy"hahaha......and girls would whisper at the back"euuww...so not macho..cryin'...huh..meluat r!!!"....huhuhu...tapi kan....why bother bout what others think when u got urself to think about???
i think people are not that retarded to think like that...
just the usual thing..
'afraid of your own shadow'>takut bayang2 sendiri...
^_^....